Super fat post pregnancy

With my pregnancy with Sulaiman, I gained 15kg on top of the extra 5, lost 10 and kept 5.

I’ve been fat my whole life. It’s something I’ve always struggled with. Once I entered uni, I dropped a lot of weight magically without doing anything special. Exciting new phase of life I guess. Anyhoo, it’s not something that has really concerned me since then. So very not a vain person, despite what some may think. But this morning I decided to wear my favorite pair of black slacks, which have always been so loose I need to wear a belt…

Stuck midway up my thighs.

I suddenly realized how fat I really am. Tree-trunk legs. Ass of a black girl. Ah fuck. Put on my maternity pants. For the first time, in a long time, I felt sad, embarrassed, angry, disgusted at my body. So I suppose I should try to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight.

I will try.

I will.

This was my breakfast this morning:

Last unhealthy junky food. Promise 😉

I will try harder after this.